I need this as a CONSTANT reminder!
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A piercing cry tears through the quiet night. I groggily open my eyes and see the clock – 3:28 a.m. I go through the motions of making a bottle, only half awake, my body and mind heavy. As I pick up my son to feed him for the third time that night, tears begin slipping down my cheeks. Exhaustion courses through me. But that exhaustion isn’t just from sleep deprivation. Or the extreme level of hormones my body’s trying to wash out of my system. It comes from someone needing you – all the time. It comes from being in constant contact with people, but feeling all alone. It comes from feeling like accepting help shows weakness. It comes from constantly trying to prove to someone – anyone, that I am capable of handling anything thrown my way.
I could probably take you through my life’s story and point out situations and examples of why I became the way I am, but if I did that then I would only feel justified where I should not. Almost every problem in my life comes down to one major flaw. I am filled to the brim with pride. And I cannot accept grace. I cannot accept grace because of my pride. Even the process of deciding to write all this down, for people who know me to read, was a battle with my own pride. It goes against every fiber of me to admit that I had hard nights with my son. To admit that I should have accepted help when it was offered to me, but I didn’t.
I have always felt that if I needed help, or if I am overwhelmed, then I have failed. Yet when I look at others who ask for help, I think they are perfectly justified. They deserve help, where as I do not. I suffer; I make my family suffer, because I have a double standard for me and those around me. I hold myself to an extreme standard of excellence. I feel that if I am not stressed to my breaking point every day, then I am lazy. And all the while I feel like no one can know. That I have to keep a smile on and tell everyone (mainly myself) that “I’ve got this,” that we live in a state of perfection. All these feelings and expectations rob my family and me of happiness and comfort.
So how do I combat this? How do I accept grace? How do I let go of the rules and stress that I have placed on myself? For me it is an everyday choice to lay down my pride and accept gifts from God in the form of help and encouragement from others. Really it all comes down to LIVING this Bible verse:
“And He said unto me, ‘My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness.’ Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” 2 Corinthians 2:9 (KJV)
I am not perfect. I have bad days. I have bad nights. Sometimes I don’t think I can take one more second of crying, one more load of laundry, or one more stinky diaper. Sometimes I need help! And that is okay. In fact it is wonderful! Maybe some days are too much because I need to look around and see all the blessings that God has given me; the people willing to pick me up when I am falling, willing to love me even when I don’t feel lovable, willing to accept me even though I am not superwoman. Accepting help does not mean that I am falling short of what God wants for me. It means that he is daily molding me into what He intends for me to be. And what He intends for me is NOT to be self-sufficient, but whole-heartedly dependent on Him and willing to accept the gifts he offers every day. Truly amazing grace.
Today is a very special day. ALL the laundry in the house is DONE! We have been stuck in the house for over a week because my little man has been sick. So what is a momma to do, but clean! But the cleaning is done so next up is baking!
I have been having a crazy cookie craving! I rummaged through my cabinets to see what I could scrounge up. Tobi helped. : )
Here is what we ended up with:
1 1/2 Stick of Butter
1 Cup of Splenda (or sugar)
1 Cup Brown Sugar
2 Eggs (beaten)
2 t. Cinnamon
2 t. Vanilla Extract
1 Cup Flour
3 Cups Oatmeal
-Cream together Butter & Sugars
-Add Eggs, Cinnamon, & Vanilla, Blend well
Spoon out teaspoons of dough onto a greased cookie sheet.
Bake @ 350 for 10 minutes.
They may not look done, but they are! Let cool, & enjoy!
Yields: About 3 Dozen, 90 Calories each
My hubby and I spend a lot of our down time watching Netflix. Netflix dates are awesome because we just put a date like spin on our normal evening activities! Currently we are watching Chuck. There are so many things that you could do with this spy series.
Tonight’s date featured a spy invitation, my version of Chuck’s Famous Chicken Pepperoni, and Frozen Yogurt. We don’t drink alcohol but we LOVE Welch’s Sparkling Grape Juice (just so you know 🙂
Here is the printable if you want to invite your man to a Chuck Night Date!
The Chicken Pepperoni turned out really good! Here is the recipe:
2 Chicken Breast (thawed & cut into 1 inch pieces)
Half Package of Pepperoni (about 20, cut in half)
1 Can or Jar spaghetti sauce
1 Can Black Olives
1 Package of Linguine
2 Tbls. Oil
Sugar, Italian Seasoning, Salt, & Pepper to taste.
Cook linguine. In a Skillet, cook chicken in oil. Add pepperoni and olives. Pour all of spaghetti sauce in skillet, and season to taste. Top linguine with sauce mix and top with cheese.
The hubby LOVED it! : ) score!
We had frozen yogurt for dessert. Super easy. Just freeze…yogurt.
Other food ideas for Chuck date nights are: Subway, Fancy hotdogs (for season 1 at least), or cheese puff balls as a snack! You could also send your hubby on “missions.” This could become super elaborate and really fun! There are 5 seasons, so plenty of opportunity for date nights! Here is the clip art if you want to make your own missions or invitations.
Got any netflix/date night inspiration you want to share? I would LOVE to hear it! Comment on this post, and don’t forget to pin it (button found below!)
I found this fantastic recipe for Spiced Chicken! Thank you Pinterest! Here is the Original Recipe. I tweaked it just a bit for a smaller portion.
2 tablespoons brown sugar
1/2 teaspoon smoked paprika
1/2 teaspoon cumin
1/2 teaspoon salt
1/4 teaspoon black pepper
1/4 teaspoon dried oregano (Optional)
1/4 teaspoon garlic powder
2 chicken breasts – thawed
Put all ingredients (except for chicken) in a large ziplock baggie. Shake and Mix ingredients. Add chicken. Shake to coat well.
I refrigerated mine for about 30 minutes.
Bake at 425 degrees for 20-25 minutes or until juices run clear.
This was delicious! And only 209 Calories per serving – based on a 6 1/2 oz chicken breast.
Date Night isn’t always free, but it doesn’t have to be expensive either. Like I have already said, I love at home dates. Those still take a little cash though. We do a weekly budget and take out a small amount for fun things. Any extra cash I put in my “Date Dollars” Jar. As you can see – it is overflowing. 🙂 Right.
Oh well – Every little bit helps
Here are some printables for you to make your own!